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christmas!!! yoshhh…another month to go. yeahhhhhh happy time is around the corner once again. fun, family, relatives, friends, presents, candies, christmas tree, twinkle twinkle lil’ colour lights and money babehhh moneyyyy!!!!! SNOW!! i want snow, gedemet…of all the places in this whole wide world to experience snowless but why must it be sabah?? why?? not fair for a dreamer :( 
hey!! mr. santa, i want a snowman for christmas.

gosh, i miss my band. i miss u guys, don n pam. hope you two are having a really good time with the children. yeah we did write some good stuff back then. well, we always will and that is certain

england versus crotia for the qualifying EURO cup will be kicking off within 20 minutes from now but i kindda sleepy now. i bet crotia will win the game hahaha. why? because crotia has a bunch of badass butt kickers than england does lol. nahhhh joking!! england lost a game to russia 2-0 just recently if im not mistaken.. susah lehh… not to look down on the team but yeah la begitu laitu, they’ve always been overrated to almost every tournament they were in for almost a century long. NDA JUGA PANDAI MENANG MENANG. BUANG KAREN.

am sleepy now. i’ll continue later…as if

journey thru the heart of de’ la sagos. well, ride on.

i got a lil’ frustrated these few days aha. lots have i done but less have i got in return. man, i kindda feel like fucked up yo. i know i know .. it’s not worth to complain but yeah, sometimes we need to let it out from the chest..once in a blue moon. i really really hate the challenge. a never ending tale but it’s ok. life is like that, a journey. just bring it on yo. i’ll crush you overpower, soon.

i went to jesselton point this afternoon and had lunch with c daine. i had a very nice fried rice kampung style lol and liong fun susu while waiting for the ferry to come. it’s been awhile since we had lunch together.. yeah like years haha. we talked much about relationship..mengurik rahsia la kunun dia ekeke. next year we’ll open a family business togetha getha ok and you’ll be my secretary lol. i’ll be your boss!

ahh damn, my nose got itchy. got flu and sore throat sumore. the night is dark and so it is here, in this room. the breeze is chill and my nose is blocked. love song fills the air. im cool but at the same time im kindda missing sumthing but i dunno why nor to what it is. im just feeling that way. i kindda hate it but that’s how it is. feelings come and go and left sumthing behind. memories arised. it ain’t fun.

just finished my movie watching, last of the legion. ok ok la but not like what ive expected. i wanted mo action!!! neway, it makes me wonder, tho. why only in movies that hero and heroins can make it beautiful in the sense of getting together until the end? how about in real life? is there such a thing? hmmm..im curious haha.

man, i want a gf hahaha 1 simple girl for me and thats it. sounds desperate ya haha. desperado. nahhh.

i wanna be the next big thing. there is something about this pic that no words can describe. i am so happy to see this and big thanks to Sly. i can still see the faces and yeah, we’re still going strong ya frens. we will make it somehow, no doubt about it. together we go to the top, alrite guys.

ohh man, im sorry big time guys for not having any bit of my time for you all. im kindda busy at the moment, u know. yeah i want to please everyone no dobut about it but i have to do some important stuff before december ends. ahh damn. i dont even have time to reply smses this time around, so, dont take that for a harsh heart feeling alrite. believe me, i got lots of plenty time ahead.

do have faith in me yo thanks

the end of the year is around the corner again. yup. time is moving kindda rocket speed. damn. as i recalled back, i cant really think of things i done to the best. it’s really sux mah. it’s november, another month before christmas and the big day, new year. might just think this is just another wasted year but there is another month to go so i wont say neting stupid just yet. i have a good feeling that this year end will be a blast. at least for once this year haha. wont ended up a loser tho.

i plan to go to surabaya by early next year. hope so but i cant say much coz life sux sumetimes. still, i really want to. i didnt say it much but on raya holidays i was in keningau. ya i met with my relatives, cousin baby sis natalie, old friends and i had the chance to drink with my uncle, aunty, mom n crazieeee cousins. it’s been awhile. damn , my pc got infected with virus. cilaka. neway, that’s not the main point. while i was having my drink, the ‘family’ asked me to get married. so soon??!! hohoho i was like HUH??!! of all the cool kids in the family, why am i the one who got asked?? at first i thought they were just joking around but then i realised that everyone including my mom got serious faces and i was like shitttttttttt. i havent got myself a steady life and all, you know, and for this time being, i dont think that really want to lol. i joked a bit with excuses but you know, i was flowing some bloody cool night sweats haha. it got me thinking a bit tho. i guess i wasnt growing up like i am meant to be haha. i rang a friend of mine. this dude was the most naughty dude in school back then and the last thing i know, he’s going to get married early next year with a very hot chix. walauweh. it got me thinking a lil furthur. well, guys, i think we got a lil carried away with the bachelor thingy between us good friends. ya ya im going to get a gf la and just see la what will happen next year lol.

before anything happen with me and my ‘another adventure in realationships’, i hope im already into making big bucks. so in case anything terpelanting i guess im ready to settle down ahahaha. i wish to go far as i can go so that i wont regret anything later. so many things to do tho. haiya.

november will be the month of ass-kicking. december will be a month of loneliness haha. everyone fly here fly there and i am left alone, jaga rumah. gud gud. it’s good to have lots of time alone doing nothing but own business. not bad after all. home party!!! joke

say, need to stop coughing tho. it’s killing me already. STOP!! :s

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saying of the mind, 301007, 2:24am

life is filled with so many good things you know, we just dont realised it for most of the time. just like what they said, if you know the secret to overcome sadness, it seems to be just a lil spice in the fun side. it’s nothing more than just a hu-ha or so.

yeah i know, it sounds stupid but hey, it’s no bullshit yo. we cant simply escape all the troubles but if u can make it the other way then why not ya. would you prefer to let problems ruin your day, or just letting em’ go and feeling good for the entire day, no?

i let you know a secret. dont let the bad things (whatsoever it is) conquer any bit of you. not even a lil bit of your time. dont mind to think about it too much. if you come across of 1, straight away focus on the positive side of it. you’ll feel better than ever, for sure.

im not gonna let myself down again and again and so on. im so damn tired of that haha. i’ve came into a state, whereby, everything seems so …i dunno what to say haha. everything is so cool. there is no specific feeling on anything. break ups? hah..so what. im cool haha. pity on them who’d lose me coz im gewd, i must say.

sorry to say but, im not going to get myself frustrated on things resulting failure for a long long time. moving forward is a very good way to get along with happiness. i’ll do it as fast as i can. why do i need to bother shit about the past. if you think it’s a bad thing to do then so be it. stay in that shadow of failure, everlasting. hah!

i dunno, maybe it’s just me..there isnt much space for bad seeds in me. 

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